pew pew.

Ranting.

I don’t understand why you do this to yourself. I don’t have the guts to tell you what I think because I don’t want to make you upset. But honestly, is it that satisfaction you want? The satisfaction that comes from all your attempts of trying to be the best boyfriend you could be to those girls you’ve been with? From what you tell me, they don’t seem to even put in the effort. And you get so distraught over it and think that you can never do anything right. How many times have I told you not to think that? You’re doing your best and that should be enough. What is it though, why do you go for it? Is it because you don’t want it to come easy? Is that why you put yourself in these relationships? I suppose if it all does work out in the end, it would be worth it…but ugh. I don’t know. Silly boy I don’t understand you sometimes. And, how dare you ask me, “Ate, am I a burden?” REALLY?!?!!! YOU’RE REALLY GOING TO ASK ME THAT?!? Why would you even ask that question to me when you should clearly know the answer? But I still gave you the reassurance that you are not a burden, and have never been a burden to me. I told you that over and over. I want to help you, but you make it so hard sometimes -___-;